Whew! I’ve waited a long one for this.
Isn’t God faithful? Words don’t even describe how full my heart is. Can’t remember anything peculiar in the month of September but it was fireworks in Heaven. There was a new life bound to be released, to be breathed in the depths of my belly. As much as I inwardly craved this moment, it was too good to be true once I found out…at 4 am one Friday morning. After peeing in a yogurt bottle top and dipping in the pregnancy strip, I saw the faintest second line. And I knew what that meant. I din’t need any crimson line or a 2nd test. In a frisson of both elation and anxiety, I confirmed my biggest dream.
I’m trying to recap the past weeks as accurate as I can remember…well, the pregnancy brain kicked in way too early. I have details of this tiny being from conception to implantation. The latter happened on a Monday evening, 18th September to be precise, right before I left the office. Same heatwaves in my lower abdomen but no implantation bleeding. I told my immediate family that Sunday, 1st October and they are super thrilled.
3 Weeks 6 days – September 29th
I find out I’m carrying you at 4am in the morning. What a disbelief! I’m facilitating a training for work not far away from the CBD. The hunger is kicking in. The bloating too. I’m constantly touching my stomach as if I can feel you already. I know there’s crazy cellular activities going on from the heat in my stomach. 2 hours into the training and I’m spent. I eat like there’s no tomorrow.
I’m working out of town and those early mornings are a nightmare. My snack checklist: Milk, nuts, and other dry snacks. Apples. I spend hours on transit. No morning sickness. I’m starting to frequent the washroom for pees. I can still eat a whole bucket of peas, I won’t allow an aversion to peas. I take a second pregnancy test, not because I’m in doubt. I want to see a darker second line and it doesn’t disappoint. I’m concerned about the constant cramps at night. Hours on baby center is proving unhealthy since I keep reading about miscarriages. I find out it’s a common thing and as long as there’s no blood then we are fine.
Ok. Is this thing really happening? I’ve got zero symptoms aside from the hunger and the heat waves. Still working out of town and I can’t stand milk or nuts. Food aversion kicking in early. I go home to my parents for a night and my mum thinks I’m showing. Lol. The bloating is not pretty.
It’s the second week of taking Pregnacare Plus and all those vitamins are making me glow. I’m bloating like nuts. I let in 2 of my close buddies on my little secret. Pregnancy sickness kicks in. Awful monster.
I remember 2 weeks to finding out I was concerned about zero sickness – in relation to pregnancy viability. I can’t begin to describe how bad I’m feeling at this point. Weak, zero energy, No appetite, too nauseated to cry. 3 litres a day of water is just a drop for my digestive system, it’s got zero effects on the bloating. I share my pregnancy news with two of my colleagues coz I’m starting to forget things and its coming in the way of my work.
Indescribable sickness. Whoever called this morning sickness was such a sham.
On Thursday 9th, I go for a debriefing meeting on my upcoming trip to Bujumburu courtesy of the French Embassy. I’ll be site-seeing with this little Bean from 11th – 17th December. I’ll be graduating – God willing – on December 22nd. I’ll be holidaying in Mombasa in the same month and I can’t wait to shut the door on November. Ok, back to week 9. From 9th – 12th November, me and Bebeng 😉 (my sister) spend our long and early weekend with the kids at their granny’s. That’s where I gained these extra kilos ( 58.5 kg from my last appointment).
1st appointment – blood work and ultrasound. Everything is perfect. I don’t even need to take iron supplement because my Hb level is over the roof, a stunning 14.9 grams per deciliter. I substitute Pregnacare Plus with folic supplements and actual food for the extra vitamins…they have been such a struggle since the sickness kicked in. Plus they are really huge. Did I mention that I’ve been feeling this tight knot in my throat? Like I ate something and it got stuck there. I couldn’t stand piling one more pill to add to the discomfort. The ultrasound experience was everything. I saw the teeny tiny hands and feet, the heartbeat was such a relief. H/she was so calm the nurse had to keep prodding to get a clear glimpse.
We turn week 11 on Saturday. It will be one more week to 2nd trimester. I’m already feeling my energy levels spike. As I mentioned earlier, there are too many activities in December and soon, I’ll be halfway through the journey and looking forward to the month of June when she’s here. I’m honestly praying it’s a she.
I know I’ve felt the flutters already from week 9, can’t wait for the kicks. I wonder how I’ll tell my almost 5 year old that he’s going to be a big brother :-).
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